LOOKING FOR YOU
there’s a jealous moon compensating for a brilliant sun on this fine monday evening the week has just begun i’m sitting in my room contemplating what i should have done weary from old love and battles i’ve never won still i’m looking for you and so i think of you shape and color of the morning sun and how the light will reflect on you when you wake up and so my head makes room for the possibility of someone new i’ve been searching so long my eyes are hurting too still i’m looking for you the walls of this here room are closing in on me like an army full of greed like a silent cheer i’m burning on the inside and i’m waiting just to bleed just to feel alive cause i’m looking for you i don’t wanna wait around….
THANK YOU MR.
thank you mr. for telling me how to live my life thank you mr. for telling me who i have to be thank you for your advice but i did not ask for it thank you mr. for pointing out how things have to thank you mr. for saving me from who i used to be thank you for your honesty but i did not ask for it so let me be before you crush me let me be before you make me you thank you mr. for helping me see eye to eye and i thank you mr. for giving me this opportunity thank you for your concern but i did not request it so there you sit now making me feel two feet small thank you mr. for teaching me how to crawl again thank you for your kind words but i do resent them so let me be before you crush me let me be before you make me you thank you mr. for showing everything you are and thank you mr. and i believe we’ve come so far cause now i see who you are and i’m glad of who i am….
so now you’re alone that’s what she said leaving i’m never coming back and i’m never gonna do what you want it’s not the way that i roll then i say be gone and pretend you mean nothing and sleep with anyone cause i think it’s gonna help but i know it’s not the way that i roll you throw me a curveball now how am i supposed to hit it you never let me in and then you make me regret it gonna throw it all way if you don’t say what you have got to say so then you move on and replace me with someone you barely even know who can make you feel loved but i know he’ll be a junkie like me addicted to you when you’re through with being lovely you’ll squeeze out every drop of what’s good till to the next one he’ll say he’ll be a junkie like me you throw me a curveball now how am i supposed to hit it you never let me in and then you make me regret it gonna throw it all way if you don’t say what you have got to say….
now you can tell the world that you love him you can express your gratitude from day to day you can let all the people feel his passion but you don’t fool me you can post a million thank you’s on your wall now or even pose in some family photo too but through your eyes i still see i’m the one that burns for you so you don’t fool me no you don’t fool me and maybe all the time i’ve spent far from you has made you forget just how my lips taste if you could change you path your time your destination would you be smiling just a little more if you saw my face now you can fool yourself by thinking he’s the one for you with your depleted tears you spent on missing me if i had maybe just been half the man that he is i should have never headed back to italy so who’s the fool now i’m your fool now and you’re my queen….
AND THE QUEEN
come my queen come follow me let’s go there together won’t let you leave you will see he’s not like me he won’t make you quiver and shake like me hey my heart breaks come my queen come follow me don’t believe in forever now is the time to be you will see your majesty i’ll treat you much better than ever could he hey my heart breaks don’t run away….
i seem to go through you like a vulture through a carcass and my defeated life consists of thinking back and i hope you find everything you need while you’re hanging on the line i’m thinking patiently do i exist for you anymore am i just a ghost half empty floating through the door do i exist for you anymore am i just a ghost bare and empty floating through the door i seem to feel alone every time one of you leave and my table set for two is only half full while my heart is stuck in my throat and i’m choking quickly and I hope you find everything you need while you’re hanging on the line i’m thinking frantically do i exist for you anymore am i just a ghost half empty floating through the door do i exist for you anymore am i just a ghost bare and empty floating through the door….
HOPE AND HEART
ten years of trying to be someone defy the world and make them see but ten years of trying won’t change the fact that i’m still looking for the man i should be they hope i find hope they hope i find love they hope i find happiness i hoped i was right too many times but i failed at my success i know you forget cause it’s easier than dealing with it every day so i’ll take the blame and the guilt as well cause i’m the one who took our love away i hope you find hope i hope you find love i hope you find happiness i hope you find trust i hope it’s not me cause i keep making a mess two years have passed since they buried you and still that day won’t let me be cause on that day i realized that without you it’s just simply me but leave me some hope and know you were loved and know you brought happiness but i have no hope and too little love to fill this emptiness i will find hope i will find love for you all gave happiness i will not fall without getting up for you are all in my heart i will find….
don’t speak too fast today things don’t work out my way your silent face hits my eyes and screams louder than a million cries and you gave me and you gave me something new then you walked out and you took it back with you my friends tell me move on calm your busy mind my son but they weren’t in my room that day when you said no matter what i’ll stay and you gave me and you gave me something new then you walked out and you took it back with you now you’re gone for good too and you’ve taken my soul with you and then i fall apart like i did for you….
i’m fighting through my frequencies i’m lost in my eq and all it seems to do to me is bring me back to you my decibels have long since gone my ear drums black and blue the only thing that keeps me sane is knowing i have you don’t throw me out like somebody you’ve used recharge me and bring me back to life i’m driving home in my new car i’m listening to the news and all they seem to talk about are victims and abuse but if you would just talk to me just like we used to do i know that i would make it through and speed on down to you don’t throw me out like somebody you’ve used i’m falling fast and if i land i’ll bruise recharge me and bring me back to life….
AS YOU WISH
for some time now i’ve been thinking that you’re leaving now i’m sinking you don’t look at me with those big green eyes you just look through me as if i’m not alive for some time now you’ve been distant i keep pushing for some answer but all it seems to do is place me further from you but i never found peace with anyone but you and it’s cold so cold the rain is creeping in deep from beyond the hills the air is filled with ice the wintry wind collides with your disinterested resentful mood and you’re cold so cold that i don’t know if i can make it on my own there’s no one left to call there’s no one left to tell me how to make it home and if you feel like changing your mind the door is open the key’s unlocked and if you feel like changing your mind the door is open the bets are off take your time take your time but don’t let me die before you say you love me take your time take your time but don’t let me die before you say you love me again your time is up….